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Can't come up with anything catchy. Tomorrow is Turkey day and the official start of the "holiday season." I feel like even trying to find a job during the holiday season is pointless no one hires until January and everyone is distracted and preoccupied and not much work even gets done. Like how i try to justify the fact that I am resigned to my unemployed state? I just can't seem to make money making a priority.

Yesterday I met with the midwife again who was shocked that we hadn't talked about what any of the tests meant, she said she always talks to people about them, well not to me! The good news is that all the tests look normal no alarming freaky diseases at this point. But then she listened to the heartbeat and said she had NEVER heard such a fast heart beat on such a small fetus before. When they start moving around a lot the heart rate can soar but at this stage they ain't really working out too much. It was so high that it was off the dopler and she had to use her watch. she counted 200!

I got a flat tire on the way to her office and made a mad dash for the subway with my bike to get there on time so maybe the fetus was just really excited, though my heartrate was only at 80, as exciting as a flat was. . . The only theory she could come up with was that I was on too high a dosage of synthroid so she took more blood. Of course with tom. being thanksgiving i probably won't find out anything for a while and meanwhile my blob of a baby is running marathons in there. She said she had no idea why the baby would be working so hard but i guess better that than a faint heartbeat or missing heart beats.

This weekend Mr. T and I watched The Business of Being Born the homebirth movement cult classic. I think Mr. T is beginning to understand some of my critiques of hospitals and OB's and is even coming around to the idea of a home birth. You know it's good agit prop when Mr. T woke up the next morning and said he had a dream about labor, it's starting to sink in!

I have decided to go to the Hazon food conference in CA again over Xmas so I have to go and write some essays to hopefully get a full scholarship to attend. . .